42. God speaks

i found myself

in a valley of tears

hating myself

for my own sins

i've lived in those sins

ignored the warnings

yet at the back of my head

i hear God's proddings

i read His words

I claimed understanding

but only temporarily

before long i found them waning

i praised Him for all things

acknowledged His blessings

but when the time came for faith-testing

i found myself running

but God is faithful

beyond our understanding

even when we reject Him

He still remains so loving

Today in a painful moment

of admitting my sin of unbelief

I confessed wholeheartedly

and after that I found relief

God sent an emissary

a vessel of God's truth in words

it was like a dam broke, I cried a river

For what she said truly struck a chord

I sit here laughing, crying

enjoying this quiet conversation

about promises, about love

about healing and protection