10. A Lesson in Obedience

(photo by SpinC)

(warning: a long read)

I am walking with Him
and everyday I pray and ask for guidance
there's this desire I have
for daughter T to get that "chance"

the initial test, she passed
we started claiming victory
the second test, a difficult hurdle
as we waited for word, we started to worry

we didn't lose hope, we kept on praying
deep in our hearts, we could feel His blessing
after a few days, we heard the announcement
It's a YES, the tears we cried came like a torrent

we thought that was it, the trial was over
yet there's another session of questions and answers
on the appointed day, T forgot the endorsement letter
I told her: "what better endorsement than one from the Father?"

She made it and was told to proceed to the last hurdle
get physical exams, medical and dental
she submitted to the doctors, in her heart there was worry
in the end she was told, she needs to get an odontectomy

Expensive procedure, mentally we calculated
With very little time to have the results re-submitted
My heart sank, I know this time it would be crucial
from the start we had known we would falter with things financial

I talked to God and asked why it was so
She passed all the hurdles, in this one, is it a NO?
Doubt reared its ugly head, but in my heart, I heard Him say
Search and see what you can do, you will get your answer the next day

around 2am, I read Ann Voskamp's blog about Thanksgiving
It was about thanking God, for good or bad, for everything.
it hit me right there, giving me the conviction
to accept God's will and obey the instructions

Ann Voskamp's daughter, her innocent heart was questioning
“If God really works in everything, why don’t we thank Him for everything?
Should I only thank God for T's passing the hurdles?
And skip to thank him for what I thought was a blunder?

I accepted God's will with no more hesitation
I told myself, maybe T would need this for regimentation
I am thankful I didn't give up when I thought this was God's  "NO"
He wasted no time, a message in the blog, He needed to show

The next day we asked around for quotes for the dental service
one said 11k, another 17k, I was disheartened
Money was raised, finances put together
Needless to say, my hopes went up, no longer saddened.

Finally I made some calls and in my last inquiry
T showed up in a clinic and had the doctor check and see
He evaluated and assessed and then quoted a fee
He said 6500! Can you imagine how happy that made me?

A lesson in obedience, i can clearly see from this story
I realized God's reason for directing things to be
"Trust and Obey, for there's no other way...
To be happy in Jesus, but to trust and obey"

There is no final word yet, on the outcome of the recruitment process
But whatever the verdict, We will give Thanks, nonetheless
It is up to Him if He will allow T to get this job
If not this, maybe something else, but we are assured of His Love.